A little deep thinking for ya

For the past two nights now in my dorm room I've gone into the common room to do my homework. You might guess that those were the first two nights I did my homework ... and you would be wrong of course... *ahem*.

So college life is a lot more free than I'm used to, which also means I've been doing more responsible things than back at home (makes no sense, I know). Back In high school I had a group of friends who never really needed to do homework anywhere other than in class that day it was assigned or due. They always pulled it off. Of course, I did it too; high school was easy. But here in college I'm trying to get things done a day or two beforehand.

I figured I had to get that out of the way because everyone has to talk about their transition sometime...

I'm one of those kids you would call 'good at math'. Because of this, and the fact that I like to help people out with their problems, it feels like I became 'that guy' who people try to get to know just enough to get him to help with their work and then keep away at a distance (Note: this may not be necessarily true, it just seems that way from high school and already a few people on my floor). So far I've helped at least 9 people on my floor, and they seem to give me respect for my abilities. But because I can do this work so easily in comparison to them its like they elevate me to another level of person. It seems like they can't talk to me about anything but the work because they don't know how else to relate to me.

So, ironic as it seems, I might actually like English the most in college because I won't be that 'go to guy' for the subject. I'm just not good at it!

And for the record, it's not that I don't like to help people (in fact i mentioned the opposite statement above), this is just for clarification. I think helping people helps reinforce the material in my mind as well. It's just that I feel that the relationship between me and the people I help become too 'teacher - student'.